Hiya everyone. I thought I’d have a little chat before I switch off for a few weeks. I finish up at college on Friday, officially, but Thursday unofficially and don’t go back ’til the 10th of January. Of course with it being college I won’t really be off. Always something to be doing even if it’s not taking photos.
I was talking to a friend of mine last night and it made me realise that being able to study, learn, get to spend the time and get lost in something that I love so much is such a privilege and restored my belief in what I’m doing. Whenever you have a lot of work to do it can get overwhelming and you start to think you can’t cope
I just love seeing the world differently to others. I always have done, and photography lets me express who I am in my heart and my mind. I love the looks I get when I’m lying down on the floor or ground somewhere, or looking weird all bent and skewed at strange angles, then show that person my camera screen and see the look on their face when they see what I was taking haha. Yeah it can be egotistical sometimes, who doesn’t like praise or to be appreciated for their craft, but my urge isn’t for folk to say “wow, you are good”, it’s to hopefully get them thinking a little differently about their surroundings and how they’ve always seen things. A few feet drop between standing and crouching / lying down gives a whole new look to a shot. Step to the side a little. I don’t want the ‘perfect’ shot, the ‘poster’ or ‘calendar’shot, I aim for something you don’t see, or the angle you never consider, just something different. A useful question to keep in your head as an artist of any kind is….”what if I did this?…..”. I don’t care if you think I’m being pompous but I’m bloody proud of myself for wanting to be different. I always have been, even as a kid.
My 3 tutors are absolutely phenomenal too. They all help me (perhaps unknown to them) in different ways and along with the belief shown in me by my girlfriend, keep me going when I think I’m going nowhere. One encourages my creativity and the way I take my photos and what I see through the viewfinder. One has instilled an honest and critical side in myself to say “is that really that good?”, “is this shot really the best it could be?”. And the third one I love talking all things photography with who understands my perspective, my thoughts and ideas and always wants to listen to my ramblings about all aspects of the art. This is invaluable, in fact it is something very special to me. Having grown up thinking that I’m not right for thinking differently I now have an outlet where I can be myself and express myself without judgement and indeed be appreciated even if my opinion differs from theirs. They respect the way I see things and I in return respect anything they say or do to help me in my creative process as a guidance and a will for me to be the best I can. So I can only say thank you very very much for all of their help and belief.
The other week I had the pleasure of doing a friend a favour and getting valuable practice by documenting a fundraising event at her college. She is doing Event Management and through her and another 2 of her classmates I will be doing another 2 events in the new year! One of them being the Pride Of West Lothian Awards, the other is another fundraising event, this time for a youth football team. I enjoyed my day at West Lothian College so much and it was brilliant research, learning and experience towards my NC and my own personal journey. I can’t wait ’til March for the awards. I will need to get some practice in for that haha.
So things personally are going as well as can be. They are going well, so I will take that. I’m not going to go overboard and mental because you know what happens. As another year draws to a close I sit and reflect as we all do and review the year just gone, and again it’s been a year full of great highs and some serious lows and a very serious event. At least I’m not boring eh hahaha. The one thing I intend to do more and learn more is to believe in myself. Belief in the skills I have and believe that I am capable of becoming even better and that I will do so.
Make every moment count, use every minute on this earth to do something with myself. Keep busy, don’t let my mind get the better of me. Work hard and use that to keep my mind busy. Take my time, try not to get overwhelmed and take things bit by bit. Just enjoy college, don’t let anything get to me and concentrate on myself. Sod trying to help anyone but myself.
So, I’ll see you in the new year folks. Have a wonderful Christmas and new year. Remember to stay humble and appreciate that not everyone will be doing what you’re doing. Shout out to all those who are caring and nursing and keeping us safe. Take care everyone. Lots of love.